One way or another, I will be starting over. Whether that means I am starting over as single or married remains to be seen. Things have been really screwed up between me and Scott. We attempted an open relationship and things spiraled way out of control. At this point, I don't know how we can even fix things. He has so much resentment built up against me and I am so angry and hurt by him. I have always been so willing to forgive, but this time, I was ready to hold a grudge forever.
Today, he was the man I married. He showed me sensitivity and love. I have been practically begging him for the past 2 months to do this. Now that I've finally had enough, he finally does. I don't know what to think. Now, he says he is sure he wants to work it out. He still have feelings for me and has never loved anyone as much as me. I am scared to trust him, but I want to so much. I feel like crying out of joy, but I don't want to jump the gun. I don't understand why it had to come to this point before he decided he wants to try. This morning, I was so sure it was over. I am so confused.
I told him we should start off rebuilding a friendship and go from there.
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