Scott was not being very nice to me yesterday and I was hoping it would be better today. Unfortunately, not. Yesterday, he was angry we didn't have the money for the house payment. He wanted me to give him money towards it and then to also, replace the tires on the van and the cracked windshield. I think I need to save right now just in case we do split up, but he is going to try to get me to pay every little thing from my account so I have nothing left. Also, he accused me of screwing up the Teethgap business because he found one I forgot to send out. He said he is sure there are more.
This morning, he said he wanted to go out without me tonight and I can go out tomorrow night. I asked if I got a babysitter, could we go out together. He said "I just want to go out with my friends.". I got really upset that he is actually going out with our friends and I am not invited. It use to be an open invitation for me to go out with him, but now he wants his time out without me. I feel excluded and he is not treating me as a friend. He says I'm overreacting, but it really hurt my feelings. He never apologizes anymore and acts like I am being a psycho bitch.
I really don't know if I want to continue in a marriage where I am not loved and treated with respect. I was hoping he had changed his mind about us and was really wanting to stay together. Now, I think I jumped the gun to make such as assumption. Sadly, I think this is the beginning of the end. I am only dragging out the process of separating.
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